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i feel so blah lately. i haven't been active at all.

i just lack proper creativity and something... i don't know. it's probably best if you ignore me.



new years resolutions?

i need to study.
get a job.
not go back to being friends with people who aren't worth it.
find a way to be nicer to my friend while keeping a promise to their sister in teasing them endlessly.

i'm one of those that finds next to no joy in the christmas spirt, mostly because i never have anything to do, and it's one of the most boring days of the year for me. so i must find something to do tomorrow... it's going to be a long day.

this is only because i'm muslim and i don't celebrate. it's not that i'm anti-religious or anything like that. so please don't hate me.

but for all my lovely followers and friends out there i'm here to wish you a very merry christmas. may it be filled with all the joy and happiness that you deserve. i hope you all enjoy and cherish the day you have ahead with family and close friends and everyone else that matters to you.

and for those that have other festivities outside of chistmas, my wishes for joy and happiness are extended to you as well.

tis a time after all for everyone to be happy.

much love.

i'm manically in love with across the universe by the beatles- more specifically the opening lines and verse

words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
they slither while they pass
they slip away across the universe
pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind
possessing and caressing me

jai guru deva om
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world

images of broken light which
dance before me like a million eyes
that call me on and on across the universe
thoughts meander like a
restless wind inside a letter box
they tumble blindly as
they make their way across the universe

jai guru deva om
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world

sounds of laughter shades of life
are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me
limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
it calls me on and on across the universe

jai guru deva om
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world
nothing's gonna change my world
jai guru deva
jai guru deva

DUMAN

(turkish song lyrics translated)

for some reason everytime i come to update my journal i forget what i intend to say. tis bad and annoying.

not much new has been going on for me, the weather has been gloomy, rainy and cool- this makes me happier. because i can tolerate it :]

last night was my best friend's birthday party. we went to dinner then caught a train into the city, although we got there an hour later than intended i still had a great time. dancing, jumping, and walking long distances in nine cenitmetre heals. i toughed it out as much as it hurt. and i had a friend supporting me when it came to walking up and down stairs which i did need. but still i'm proud of myself.
even though it was my first time out to a club and dancing with drunken weirdos, it was down to me to save my friends, in funny but creep the shit out of you ways. the first was when my friend had a guy try and pick him up, and it was when we first got into the club itself. the look on my friend's face freaked me out to see how scared he was so i just ran up to him grabbed his wrist and dragged him away. then this guy wanted to dance with my best friend he took hold of her hand and all and she said no twice but he kept nagging so i snatched her hand away danced with her for a bit then shoved her into one of our guys who started dancing with her. i kinda felt bad for the other guy. haha.

how are you all?

PERRY FARRELL

it's 30 degrees celcius, midnight, and there's a thunderstorm aloof. FML?
i may like storms, but not the heat... and that's well known by how often i rant about it, but honestly i like being able to fall asleep at a decent time without resorting to sleeping on tiles.

my best friend's birthday today, spend the day with her and now i'm drained. but it was worth it.

*is too hot to think straight anymore*

i'll go and try to get some sleep.



hope all is well, will probably update soon(ish).

i need something to photograph or concepts for self portriats etc.
i'm open to ideas. so please comment - and not that i don't need to tell you, nothing vulgar, sexist, lude or nude etc.

i got my marks, i passed all my subjects, which is good and bad. i need to pull my marks up in order to into my masters.

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i was double tagged, but luckily they crossed over so, the first list covers both the first tagging alone, and the first half of the second tagging. and i'm too lazy to tag others. so if you want do it :]

TEN Things About Me That You Should Know (also the frist tag):

1- i can be quiet the vulgar, dirty minded person to the extent that i out shame guys.
2- i’m partially dyslexic.
3- i remember random details perfectly without any trying to.
4- i am a scratcher, so i have a lot (and i mean A LOT) of scars mostly it’s down to the fact that i hate the rough feeling of a scab- maybe it’s mild ocd.
5- i cannot stand american phrases, spelling and pronunciation when it’s done by australians. because we’re AUSTRALIAN and are meant to have our own way.
6- IVF is the only option for me to have children (by personal standards and morals in response to slight medical complications)
7- i'm pedantic when it comes to how things are organised so much so that i can never get my room to a standard that i like and can maintain.
8- i’m a slushie whore.
9- i struggle to accept behaviours when i don’t understand the cause for them, i.e. why people are negative for no good cause. this frustrates me because i tend to me fairly perceptive.
10- i keep my involvement in dA and my writings a secret from my family.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:

1- i won’t ever see you the same again.
2- i still sometimes hope we can find a way to make it work.
3- i don’t want to think what my life would be like without you.
4- i can't believe what you are.
5- you drive me crazy all the time with your hypocrisy.
6- i forget how much i really miss you till i’m with you.
7- i’m going to miss you.
8- you’re amazingly stunning… but that doesn’t even begin to cover what i already know about you (even if it’s not a lot). i just love you.
9- you’re pretty much the purest person i know.
10- i don’t even know who are, i haven’t for a long time and honestly i couldn’t care anymore. i got tired of caring and i don’t know if i’ll have it in me to be there for you after all that you did to me- that’s if you ever realise that you may need me again.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:

1- purity, as in a clear and pure perception on life and the possession of firmly grounded morals.
2- personal standards and strong will- i don’t give way to peer pressure.
3- love me for me and always be yourself so that i can love you for you.
4- compassion.
5- the ability to make me smile and happy.
6- relaxation/calm spirited, i don’t want to feel the need to constantly make one feel comfy and pleased and don’t want to make someone feel obligated to do the same for me.
7- don’t be overbearing and controlling of who i’m friends with and how i am with other guys, trust me and know that my loyalty is to you, and visa versa.
8- affectionate, i’m a very affectionate person, and i want someone that’s similar and that gives nice hugs.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

1- study.
2- food.
3- friends.
4- my future.
5- lyrics.
6- t.v.
7- the weather.

FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment:

1- parents.
2- sister.
3- my monkey nut (sister from another mother)
4- boo (tied for longest standing best friend)
5- baboon (brother-like best friend)


FIVE songs that you listen to often, as of late:

1- kings of medicine - placebo
2- northern downpour – panic! at the disco
3- blind - placebo
4- back to california - sugarcult
5- i am a rock – simon and garfunkel